I don’t want to vent about this, but my relationships with people are slowly deteriorating in front of my face. Relationships and bonds that took months and even years to make it work. I’ve sacrificed so much, swallowed my pride, and even neglected my academic and personal goals so that I could put in the time and the effort to actually make these relationships work. And all of sudden, I feel that I’m disconnected with it all.

1. Some of the stuff that you’ve said and that i heard bothers me a lot. You might think that it doesn’t, but I just don’t want to voice it out. I don’t want to tackle the situation because I know for a fact that it is primarily my fault. But I honestly didn’t know that you felt that way. I felt like we were at a place where we were comfortable with each other. But i didn’t know that you felt the other way around. But I’m not gonna lie, it was a struggle getting to that point. And maintaining it was even harder. I know that in this one, it’s my fault. I got complacent and I got too comfortable. I never nor will have time to do things since you already know the amount of responsibilities I try to balance on my shoulders. 
2. All this time, you’ve called me selfish, I don’t care about it all, and that I never do the right thing. But I could only take so much until I give up. And as much as I don’t want it to be this way, I’m over it. I’m over all your bullshit. Thank you so much from what you’ve done for me and I am grateful for them all. But if you’re gonna let this stupid reason get in between us, then I’m sorry to say that it’s not my lose.